Sunday, November 28, 2021

What are you trying to prove?

In the last blog, I shared some ideas from So You Want to Sing Cabaret about how the role of the voice is to be in service to the text of the songs we are singing. This shifts our goal from making the most beautiful sounds possible to making the sounds that most appropriately express the lyrics. 

In the book, authors David Sabella and Sue Matsuki also identify what they consider to be the main objective for technical voice study when it comes to singing cabaret: "...to enhance the singer's vocal ability and options safely and effectively, giving them a greater facility with which to complete the storytelling while at the same time never calling attention to that technical ability while performing." They provide an example of an inappropriate use of the voice if, for instance, a soft, intimate song is sung with a fully resonant vocal quality. In this case, as they say, "we are taken out of the story and confronted with a use of voice that tells us more about the singer's vocal training than the story being told."  

They believe there are two primary reasons singers often make these choices. The first is that decades of pop and rock music has conditioned society's vocal performance tastes to a "higher, louder, longer" mentality. "Even in classical music," they say, "holding a note higher, louder, and longer—as if it were a test of endurance—is applauded." In these times, listeners are practically forced to pay attention to the skills of the singer rather than the meaning of the text.

A second reason singers make these technique-first performance choices, according to the authors, is that they feel they have to prove to everyone that they have a good voice or a solid technique. Sabella and Matsuki remind readers that, at the level of professional performance, we all assume that the singers onstage can, in fact, sing. They shouldn't need to prove that. As they write, this attitude sometimes has the opposite effect: "Very often it is the singer's own need to prove that they can sing that unfortunately backfires and results in highlighting a technical deficit, which might otherwise have gone unnoticed." 

Now, maybe the goals of a performance within a university theatre department are different from a performance on a professional stage. Maybe, in this program, you feel like you have to put your vocal skills on display because that is how you believe you are being evaluated and graded. Naturally, one of the goals of vocal study is to build technique, which is something we hope to see in your performances. But, as we discussed in the last blog, the reason we build vocal technique is so that we have as wide a range of vocal colors as possible so that we are better equipped to express the full gamut of emotional states our characters experience. So we're not just looking for a demonstration of ability. We want to see how you use your technique to tell a compelling story.

As Sabella and Matsuki put it, "the singer must continue to work on the mastery of vocal technique to complete the vocal gesture without the anxiety of needing to prove their own merit." 

We're all works in progress. None of us have an absolutely flawless technique. But when we get to performance time, it's no longer about building technique. It's about using our current capabilities to create dynamic characters. Coming into the final performances of the semester, you may entertain this question from So You Want to Sing Cabaret

"Are you willing to trust that the vocal training you have had resides within you and does not need to be proven to your audience?" 

Thanks for a wonderful semester. I'm grateful for all of you. Let's finish strong. 

Now go practice.




28 comments:

  1. What a compelling inquiry... Am I willing? Yes, absolutely! Is this a reality yet? Well, it's in the making, and I am so glad it has been brought to my attention now (all things are divinely timed if you're open to that possibility.) Working in a professional setting has been eye opening in a lot of ways. In this regard, I can see how it is easy to feel like I have something to prove, as if they didn't already cast me and trust that I could capture what they throw my way. Relating to shows, I feel that I don't necessarily consider that I want to prove myself to them, because in a show I'm focused on being present, moving energy around, and making sure I hit all my marks....Dem Lab is a different story...In Dem Lab, absolutely I feel attached to proving myself, the ego like to get involved and say "I'm good damnit and I have to show everyone that I'm good" because there's this notion about proving yourself to your peers in Dem Lab- again, as if we didn't get in to the same program and aren't studying the same thing and all have the exact same strengths. With this in mind, I can come back to the authenticity of performing by remembering that's what I love to do, and orienting towards the understanding that the audience loves to watch people enjoying what they're doing.

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  2. This idea of a performer needing to prove themselves definitely rings true for me, especially in singing. However, at this point, I'm not willing to trust the training I have because I don't feel as though my technique is a strong enough foundation to begin building that trust on. Regardless of this trust, or lack thereof, I do think this outlook on singing and performance is perhaps the key to strengthening that foundation. Caring less about proving myself to an audience and more about what training and technique I do have under my belt, as well as telling the story, seems like a great way to unlock a different form of success, beyond sounding pretty. And for me, focusing on the opinions of others is a surefire way to feel as though I've failed.

    Isabelle Siebeneck

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  3. This was actually one of the goals I wrote down in our class on Monday for our coming performance, to be able to trust my own voice and allow myself to live within the moment. Allow myself and my thoughts to be the atmosphere of the song and to create a story rather than solely focus internally on how I sound and how I feel. Proving myself is always going to be something I struggle with due to the fact that everything I do is an act to prove to myself I'm going in the right path. Allowing myself to breathe in the work that I've done and trust my own work will provide a greater performance and a better sound, I just need to allow myself to get there.

    Tyler Van Oostendorp

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  4. This might just be my favorite blog out of all the rest. It gives good questions that speak to each individual, especially the question of "Are you willing to trust that the vocal training". I like this because it gives me a chance to evaluate myself and really think where I am right and if I've practiced enough and trust my abilities as they are now to allow myself to be fully expressive in my voice. Right now I would say that I have gained confidence and have put in the work and this was actually a flaw I felt I had in the beginning, but now I feel like I've worked hard on creating strategies that I feel comfortable enough to calm down, think about the lyrics and what I'm singing and allow myself to be expressive and share the story with my peers.
    -Debora Ingabile

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  5. Jerry Gardner has engrained "CONFIDENCE!" in the skulls of the sophomore ATP cohort. Nevertheless, I cannot seem to trust my abilities and years of conditioning the voice. Like Tyler Van, one of my goals for our final performance is to breathe; to breathe, and set the intention to be conscious of the story rather than the sound. Cicely Berry emphasized the transportation quality of language. The actor must be sensitive to the lyrics of the song and what sounds are emitted. The ideas discussed in the blog post as well as Berry's teachings are what I will carry into my practice and next week's finals.

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  6. I can't wait to be able to fully get out of my own way onstage and in the rehearsal room. I have found more success than ever before in letting the character drive the story; but this confidence is so newfound that it isn't always unrelenting, and sometimes I let the need to sound or look beautiful drive my singing. The idea of looking beautiful while singing is also something that has gotten in my way before; especially with self tapes. I got to know (intimately!) how large my mouth is when I sing and that I raise my eyebrows in a way that are absolutely giving me wrinkles. But that is literally the whole point of theatre. I am a vessel to tell someone else's story though my own lense. We get into theatre as young people because it is FUN, and part of that fun is the appreciation and validation we receive from others. While that can be a part of the attraction, it cannot drive your singing. Otherwise you will appear inauthentic and falsified. Your singing will mean less. At least, it does for me.

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  7. A saying that has stuck with me this year "Perform to the best of your abilities as you are today." I have had many problems with damaging my voice in the past most likely due to my constant use of it at max volume and straining my throat to reach specific notes. I rarely gave a break to my voice and thought about how I could be damaging it. It wasn't until later that I realized that only I know what's best for my throat. I now am aware that as long as I feel comfortable and sing to the best of my abilities without causing any harm, that I have done a "good job".
    -Noah

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  8. Ummmmm, I don't know what you're talking about,,,,, I definitely don't just sing to sound good, obviously I'm 100% focused on telling the story!!!! Just kidding. Obviously hahahahaha! Anyway, yeah, feeling really called out by this blog but in a good way. I really like what Abby said about how excited she is to get out of her own way, I totally totally relate to that. As I'm sure all performers can! Though, I think I have come a long way from where I was back in high school for example; feeling like the louder and higher I could equated how good of a singer I was. Totally insecure and and uncomfortable singing any rep that wasn't big and belty. But thanks to YOU, Dr. Brian, I have grown so much more comfortable and confident exploring all colors and ranges of my voice and now I even practice soprano rep for FUN????

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  9. When it comes to these kind of topics and technique versus storytelling I personally USED to get very nervous. As someone who grew up in Musical Theatre and had an okay voice and technique and lost it I have had to focus on storytelling rather than technique. Personally feeling not very good about myself and my voice and feeling the need to prove how things used to be. That was so unhealthy and destructive. I constantly remind myself of something Brian said I believe the first week of school "Performance is a snapshot of where you are right now." As someone who I feel like is still recovering from destructive habits and forcing things that I shouldn't have been trying to do reminding myself to do the best I can TODAY is more important that proving my place or value in a room or group. I'm beyond thankful for this class and all the knowledge I've gained, regardless of how Monday goes.
    -Luke Morton

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  10. I enjoy the idea of telling a story rather than focusing on how my voice sounds. Although I still think I struggle separating both, this class has helped me step out of my comfort zone and explore a different way to use my voice. I am aware of the lack of technique, which is why I struggle trusting my voice once I perform. I’ll continue to work on trusting myself more and tell a story using the dynamics I have learned while practicing.

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  11. Honestly, I do not trust that the vocal training I have had resides within me. I don't have to prove it to anyone really other than myself. I know how I want to sound, and how I should sound, so when I sing I almost have to prove to myself that I can do it. And sometimes I get so caught up in the technique that it debilitates my acting. I don't know what to do really, because no matter how many compliments or positive reassurance I get, I still and hooked on how I sound and my technique. Like I literally sing songs "for fun" in my car to work on technique. I think I am so hooked on how the voice works and the colors of my voice, and my blend, and mix, and all the things, that I just can't let it go and trust myself!

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  12. This blog really resonated with me! I know that I often do not let myself trust the foundation of my work to get me through the song and spend too much time focusing on that rather than telling the story. I feel this pressure to “prove” mostly just in auditioning, though. When we are asked to give a very short summation of both who we are as a singer, actor, and overall person, there is a lot that we feel that we need to prove to the auditioners. Even in this context, though, it is still best to tell a story. That is much more riveting and exciting to them than hitting a perfect high note or cool riff. I just need to remind myself this and trust that the technique is in place, and push forward to create a meaningful story!

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  13. As our final performance time comes closer it is nice to be reminded of the mentality of not trying to prove that we can sing. Anyone can sing, this class has taught me that, and those performances are not about building your technique but using our skills that we have acquired to tell an effective story. That is the heart of acting, storytelling and doing it in a way that brings your characters journey to light, but doing so honestly. In order to honestly share your characters journey through song we need to let the fear of sounding good go, and let the influence of you characters journey effect your voice. (Thank you Brian for all you have taught us!)
    -CoCo Berwald

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  14. I’m not sure if I can see myself as one who sings for perfection, or story telling. I would love to be able to do both without having to spend a second thinking about it, and I guess that’s why I’m here! At this point in time I think I could definitely zero in more on the story, but thanks to you Brian I think I’m getting there progressively! See you at my jury!

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  15. I always love being reminded of this, so thank you. Because I was trained in an environment that prized technical vocal perfection, I've really had to fight against the voices in my head that tell me it is required. This semester, I've really been focusing on trusting my technical foundation and telling the story. It is very hard going in front of your peers (especially if they are new ones haha), but I feel like our class has done a really great job moving past that fear and improving our performances. It's just nice to have another reminder that your voice isn't all that matters, and I'll try to remind myself that more often. Thanks, Brian!

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  16. Hi Brian! The first thought that came into mind when reading this blog, was movie musicals, specifically, the more recent ones within our lifetime. Movie musicals can sometimes get a lot of hate because people expect Broadway-level singing at all times within film. Sometimes, because it's a film, the movies focus more on the acting aspect than the singing, so things such as money notes aren’t as important on film than it is on stage. Coming back to the topic of on stage singing however, I think that there are some lessons we can learn from musicals on film: that we need to focus more on the acting rather than trying to prove to everyone that we can sing. I sometimes have that tendency to feel pressure because I want to prove myself to everyone that I’m capable. I think that’s a good point that you brought up within your blog, that sometimes we feel like we need to prove to the audience that we can sing and that can limit our mind while we perform.

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  17. This semester learning to trust my voice has been an ongoing struggle but one that’s getting easier. I’m still pretty terrified every time I have to sing, but it’s not paralyzing like it was before. My technique isn’t there enough to really feel like it’s something I can rely on yet. Instead, I have found the beginning of what my voice can do and that if I practice I can increase my skill and comfort level. Singing no longer feels like something that is off-limits for specific people or impossible to learn.

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  18. This blog made me really realize that every time I approach a song, I go in thinking that I need to hit the notes right on and I have focused less on the character. I think a lot of that is still from taking chior in high school. It is very important to make sure that I look back and make sure I go with what will best add to the lyrics while still sounding good

    Alex Fish

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  19. My first thought when reading this is how I feel like this semester I’ve truly started to find my voice and sing the way I sing, instead of mimicking those who can be found on recordings. This is something I’ve always struggled with, but I’m glad I’m starting to come into my own. Thank you for a great semester filled with joyous singing!
    ~Jimi

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  20. While reading this I thought about my own experiences where I felt I had something to prove. I know that I have training, but for some reason I feel like I have to prove that I’m a good singer and that I have what it takes. I often let that fear of looking like I don’t know what I’m doing take over my real goal, which is to tell the story and to portray a characters life.
    - Nate

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  21. At the beginning of the semester I started out being unconfident with my voice and singing. I really feel like I can sing without hurting my voice and use my voice more healthily. I struggled with being able to use my voice for longer periods of time without hurting it and now I feel like I have my own voice and am able to use it efficiently and in the moment without feeling the need to perform!! Thank you Brian for a great semester and everything!!

    -Tyler Kline

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  22. This is a great blog Brian. This is definitely something I haven’t been able to put into words before now but I realize that every time I’ve performed, this is something I’ve done. My anxiety makes it so that I want to have everyone’s approval and be as impressive as I possibly can. I never thought of it as that before, but I do go into things trying to show that I can sing because it’s the only thing I’ve ever been able to do. I will definitely try to stop making this my goal in performances though. I need to realize fully that it’s not about that and it’s just about the character and what they’re feeling. I will try to implement this more.

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  23. I am willing to believe that I am where I will be at that moment when I sing. You can practice and practice without end and could always find something you can improve upon or think you can improve upon. It does no good for people to not trust themselves and the work that they have put into something. You just have to do it at some point. Like riding a bike, you can only get so far with training wheels and your parents pushing you before you can ride a bike alone. So that’s what you have to do. You have to eventually take that next step onwards and trust that whatever practice and help you have had up until that point will truly be enough.

    --- Matthew Jbara

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  24. I think I always am conscious of my technique and or my voice period. I often find myself making sure my chin is down, breath is supported, and the words are over enunciated like crazy. Definitely a by product of being graded and relentlessly told to do these things. All of which are great habits to have, however not to subdue the character or performance itself. I think I have a long way to go, but the balance of trusting my technique and training has most certainly helped me in the past.

    Josh W

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  25. This is a definitely something I struggle with a lot. I'm still working on trying to figure out how to perform a piece for myself instead of as an attempt to impress. I think I'm getting closer to being able to achieve that because I find myself caring less and less whether or not people liked my performance. As a result, it seems that I've been less inclined to show my technique instead of just using it. Of course, the urge is still there and I dont know that it will 100% go away but I think I'm on the way to performing for me instead of for other people.

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  26. I love the idea that creation and performance arts are not meant to impress anybody--it should be engaged in because there is a need or passion to do so. This semester, the consistency of the class performances allowed me to brush up on my skills, as well as discover new ways to get out of my head. I always have to to repeat to myself and remind myself that I have nothing to prove.
    -Caroline Ciet

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  27. This was definitely a good reminder for me that I don’t have to prove anything while performing. I have improved since the beginning of the semester, and that is all that matters. I get in my head a lot in regards to what others think of me, or if they are impressed with my performance. Only taking into account how I feel about my skills has increased my confidence in my voice so much in the past couple months. I am grateful for being able to work on my vocal technique this semester, and look forward to growing! Being in class every week has held me accountable for my progression, and my goal is to continue working on myself after this class is over.
    -aly carter

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  28. This entire semester I've been thinking this way and trying to implement it more like with the beginning of my beast rep and my Johnny Cash song. I think I get more positive feedback when I perform like that rather than just singing to be self indulgent and show off vocal ability so that reaffirms what we've been talking about all semester with this topic.
    -Myles Davis

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